"IV"
01. No Prayer Left
I tried to change the life you rejected.
When I heard funeral songs instead of cries of a newborn.
You shut yourself away and were chocking in flames of depression.
You rejected hope for a full life when you lost forever a chance to give life to a child.
You passed through dark curtains to a room full of candles where you were repeating prayers of your world, and left me....
There is no prayer left for today.
In the dark corners of the soul a flame of our suffering is dying out.
There is no prayer left for today.
I will be back whenever you wish so.
If you come, I‘ll show you how much I wanted to help when your heart was bleeding.
If you come, I’ll show you how little was needed for you to find understanding.
02. The Summer Night End
Tonight it´s the last night of two of us
In a strange land in a hotel room
The two of us together and yet separate.
I´m sitting resignated, head in hands
Am I willing to wait for the minutes to come?
It should have been a fresh start
Summer night should have refreshed
Our fading fumbling
On our common quest
I stand up and walk round the room
I can´t find the right words, explain it to myself
The long forgotten is talked over and over again
Until the apokalypse of relation of human souls gets real close.
I tell myself what a relief
You rather run away
I hear the door bang
I lay my cautious self in bed
There is no way to settle the fast running stream of thoughts
Should I run and follow you? Or leave it all to the fate and time?
Did I fall asleep or was it just a dream?
I hear the bang at the hotel room door
Was I hoping to read the feeling in your eyes and then that I might embrace you?
Shocked I listen to the strange words
Of policemen instead and I know the time has stopped its run for me.
They are taking me to the road past the hotel
Where´s a covered body in front of a car on the road.
I´m hoping to wake up from the nightmare
But nothing of that kind is coming
I beseech to forgive me
I could never imagine anything like that even in a bad dream
Despite of all the pain and trouble of us
I have always wanted to be close to you.
03. Strangers In Our Homes
We haven´t lost our pride
We still hesitate we don´t go cowards
Though our days have been numbered
Or do we just stick to a bright future?
We haven´t lost humanity
We try to keep our dignity
But the system and heavy machinery
Of a rotten justice – Shatters us
We might have grown weak a bit
We always manage to escape and drown our thoughts like a helpless kitten
Where are the limits of the tolerance needed so much
Or do we have to wait for the history repeating?
Nobody wants to reach the last page of thier own book
If only reading could be forgotten
We miss a great deal of courage
Or are we just locked in the shell of the virtual freedom?
All we suffer from is the lack of joy of life
Love, family, and friends – all have value much different than proper.
04. Revelation
Demons of the Night, slowly waking up.
The moon gets peacefully reflected from the lake level.
It´s time to leave a footprint. I´ve been aside for much too long.
I needed to forget, direct stray soul.
To the kingdom of separated, where I vainly searched for a way.
But now time has come for change. I don´t want to leave the fate to rule.
Bring me a new life, I don´t want to be alone.
I see you in my dreams and sometimes in the streets and all around.
It´s always you and yet somebody else every time.
What remains is just a dream,
I dreamt night by night.
You were always in the dream and I never wanted to wake up.
I sometimes wake up scared, sweat covering all my body.
Looking for revelation in the corners of my room.
Looking for the face in tears.
The memories always drive me
to the frosty shivers of my soul.
With all our powers we tried to rid of our sins.
And didn´t expect anyone else to pay for them one day.
05. Crimes Against Humanity
Born from ashes, an army of fallen angels has risen,
In endless crowds heading towards shores of damned, crying it disturbs their sleep.
Images of past’re climbing above the earthly world.
Like eternal memento of violance and suffering that early and beastly stopped their path through tunnel.
Masses of the sentenced wandered with procession of betrayal to a place where even stone walls closed their eyes before the suffering, slavery and suffocation of angels.
06. Dead Angel Rising
It´s been a while since I fell asleep in your arms,
the reflection of your tears
was penetrating to the bottom of my torment.
It felt like a whole eternity
while I was dying in your arms
and begging for just one word to say goodbye.
Now each second means a thousand other lives
until I reach cruelty and rescue
and I´ll meet you again above the bridge of eternity
from which I can only follow your steps in secret
in the world of no one.
Above a surface of wandering fates
I often return to the pictures of a life of fulfillment.
I can´t hide my sorrow or suffering.
Over my loneliness and isolation.
Shall I be thankful?
To whom and how
For unearthly freedom
And fusion with eternity
When I´m watching for icons of two joined souls
Every touch, every look and maybe a new awakening…
07. Voluntary Slaves 6:26
A soft touch of winter sun awakens me
Only memories of my warm home
Pierce through my frozen body.
None of us know where we’ll be laying down
Maybe for our last sleep.
I can hear the sound of poisoned bullets coming from a far.
I’m embracing the cold ground, as I would a strange lover.
Screams of suffering along our line, maybe one of my friends
Won’t see sunlight anymore.
I go back and watch the battlefield.
We hoped for so long
That we’ll all go back home one day.
Mother, I’m not your little son anymore,
I grew painfully fast,
Not long ago I was still in school,
Now I’m dragging my weary body in the mud of flesh.
08. Confession To Stars
Trapped in the midst of time
thronging in the endless space.
It is a strange reality,
despite thousands of possibilities of assertion,
I can promise and do only little.
Yesterday I was speaking to stars
when I flow in the most bewitching dark,
I cannot understand your train of thought.
Today I counted the worlds around us.
When I wander along the heavenly path,
you can hardly understand that you can exchange a lifetime for a single second.
I've always looked for signs of eternal silence.
Perhaps I may send you a sign in ciphers
for you to understand the meaning of my seconds on your way to bliss.
We are surrounded by thousands of lights,
Will we ever again behold each other's look?
In a tidal wave of sorrowful days, freezing passion used to drive me on
so I could confess to the stars.
